This probably isn’t uncommon for teenagers, but I’m sort of baffled by a very un-anchored personality. Meaning, that although the concept of myself should be something defined and concrete, it’s more like a runny egg yolk.
I’ve long ago sort of half-accepted my amorphous sense of self, eventually finding virtues in being multifaceted and being able to compartmentalize. However, I’ve suddenly noticed that over the years I’ve developed a few constants: things that I consistently identify with and attribute to myself. 🙂
So I decided to make a photo-based post about some of them. In no particular order:
These have been steady companions during Junior year, and they reflect some of my favorite things: flowers and the color purple, passions that I doubt will leave me any time soon.
I’ve started using liquid eyeliner since 2013 as my first major experimentation with makeup. A pretty pretentious and dumb first step to take, to be honest; if you’re not aware, liquid eyeliner is hard to manage (and TBH my acne should probably be a more pressing concern). It might sound girly and petty, but I don’t really care: wearing eyeliner is one of the best decisions I’ve made in my young life. The overuse of makeup deserves to be called out, I guess, but sometimes I think makeup wholly deserves its glorification. It’s a real confidence boost. Especially in the case of eyeliner, which doesn’t cover up, but rather allows an outlet of…creative expression, I daresay?
This is such a lovely poolside spot to study and relax; not as relaxing as my bed, but this table has an important role of not putting me in a nap-coma. It has such a sense of serenity that I definitely want in my life, even as my parents sell this house after I leave for college. My favorite things to do here is look at the trees and the birds flitting around.
My “Perf” Playlist
My three-ish years as a faithful and constant spotify user (as you can tell by my monthly music faves), has resulted in this behemoth 78 hour, 24 minute playlist, with everything from Ke$ha’s “Tik Tok” to Dvorak’s “New World Symphony.” It is my life.
I identify with this because of my quasi-narcissistic princess mindset, my love of dogs, and passion for feminism.
I tried this color once and haven’t donned a different shade since. It’s actually technically “Copper Penny,” not gold, but the effect is the same: in short, it makes me feel powerful.
Well, this ended up being kind of a weird post, but I hope it sorta gives you a peek into what I’m like. See you next week!