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*Two months later*

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I’m thankful for, in chronological order:

  • Getting a second medical school acceptance
  • Avi winning a visa lottery
  • Visiting schools in New York — with Avi! ❤
  • Deciding on where I’m going to school
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Honestly, even amid these blessings, my day-to-day mood rises and dips. Stress after family FaceTimes, boredom, fatigue from social interaction. But even the lows have been much more manageable than last year. I’ve been loving the joy of celebrating Easter with my church and the novelty of traveling to Virginia, New Orleans, Indiana, and Chicago.

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Monthly Me (July ’19)

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  • Brunch on brunch
  • Propagating my spider plants again

July alternated between me getting scorched on my walk to work and days of relentless flood warnings blowing up my phone. There was even a flood warning during the Fourth of July party at my house — though luckily we grilled and chatted without a drop of rain. I think that party I hosted was the highlight of my summer. I’ve never grilled by myself before, never ordered a plethora of party supplies from Instacart…the chopped watermelon, Arnold Palmer, and patties were a huge hit!

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Monthly Me (May ’19)

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After my last final exam, I was unsure of my academic success, but I knew that I had survived the last two consecutive semesters with emotional stability at the end. But that wasn’t the only thing — I felt like I had a reaffirmed, stronger sense of who I am. I felt emboldened to be myself and face the future fallout that would result. I didn’t feel drained, but hungry — eager to start my new summer job in Philly and start studying for the MCAT.

I tied up all my loose ends, packed up my things, and went home.

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Monthly Me (Sept. ’18)

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I’ve been forlorn after a dramatic cutoff from someone close to me, so blogging has been hard.  I’ve been busy with school and the student newspaper too, but those are actually helpful in distracting me from my emotions.

I thought it’d be disingenuous to write about my month without details about the Fuckening*, but I don’t know if I should/how I can verbalize it all, so I’ve decided to make this extremely moody post for me, to help get me in the swing of blogging again and for future reference. Continue reading →

Bright Spots

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Over the summer I realized that, maybe, I obsess over my own sadness too much.  This was not apparent to me because I laugh often; I am an optimist; I take joy in little things.  But I also read journal entries from my low points in life, listen to sad music, and tear up a lot.

For a long time, I’ve thought that it wouldn’t be that tragic if my adulthood is luckluster, because my childhood was so bright and rich.  As Charlotte Bronte wrote, “I believe in some blending of hope and sunshine sweetening the worst lots.”  And so I don’t seek out constant gladness: I just try to take care of myself while having opportunities that are so full of pure concentrated happiness that they counteract some of the gloomier parts of my life.  Continue reading →

Thankful Thesis

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I just checked–I’ve never written a “Thanksgiving” post on this blog.  In the three years that this blog goes back, the timestamps on my posts conveniently skirt the 23rd.  I consider myself an appreciative person, so I don’t think it was because I didn’t have anything to say.  I think I just wanted to avoid saying something cliche or generic.

My mind changed 30 minutes ago when I saw an Instagram celebrity post a block of text as an image with the beginning sentence: “I am beyond thankful for my friends who have forgiven me.”  Though it’s in the same theme as the common I’m thankful for my friends and family, its specificity says so much more about the speaker and about her friends.  I wondered: Does my thankfulness have such a thesis? Continue reading →